Last night Alex and I went out to dinner to a restaurant. It’s actually the first time we’ve eaten out with just the 2 of us. It ended up being a later night than we should have, since Alex has his first day back at work today and poor Alex got very little sleep. So now I have a day to catch up while he has a day of solving problems at work without much sleep.
I’m starting to feel anxious about going home. I’m looking forward to seeing “home” again, but on the other hand I don’t want to leave Alex. It’s been amazing spending this time here and being part of his life, even if for just a few weeks and I just keep falling more in love with him each day.
I’ve often thought about whether I could live here permanently and I’ve been asked the question aswell. My answer is “I don’t know”. I know without a doubt that I want to be the rest of my life with Alex, and I think really I’d do just about anything for him. But for now I’m glad that he’s willing to come to Australia (once we get past the immigration issues).
I like The Netherlands, except the cold, and I love the food. But I do know that I’m certainly not ready to move at this point in time. Maybe it’s cuz I feel vulnerable at the moment being pregnant. I think my 2 biggest barriers are the cold and the language (and the right hand side of the road). Sometimes it just gets really mentally tiring trying to decipher signs in dutch and it makes me feel incompetant sometimes that I’m not able to communicate with some people.
So for those who have been wondering about how I’d feel about moving here, all I can say is not yet………….and maybe…….who knows what the future holds. In the end as long as I’m with Alex that’s the thing that matters most to me. 😉